It's been far too long since I've last written. My energies have been consumed by the sheer adjustments of starting a new life. It seems strange writing "new life" - but it's true. I moved out here without family or friends. I took only what fit into my car and left. The last month has had me operating at an incredible capacity - not only adjusting to a new job... but a new community. Names, places, ideas - I've been in high gear. I am impassioned by this life. I am no longer surrounded by the comforts of University life. Theology is a different beast here. Life is different here. Never have I had to rely upon so many people before... or had this many people rely on me. It is a humbling load. I have found myself exercising qualities I never knew I could have. It's a beautiful thing to see yourself grow - to realize you're no longer obsessed with self as you might have once been. Why do we seem to reach our highest points when it is for the sake of others? I have become someone I never knew I could be. Five years ago I was an entirely different person. I wonder what these next five years hold for myself and those near me. I think about the people who helped me reach this place and my chest tightens. I am so grateful for the lives that have become entangled within my own.
My friend Will shared with me a verse that seemed apt. "Because we loved you, we were happy to share not only God's Good News with you, but even our own lives. You had become so dear to us!" (1 Thes 2:8). I have shared my life - as broken and confusing as it may be - with some beautiful, beautiful people.
You are loved. Thank you.
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