What is it that I most value?

What is it that I most value?

There's this feeling that rises up in me when I think of certain relationships. There are these moments of absolute wholeness - a feeling of things being right and complete. They don't happen often, but these moments are powerful enough to compel me forward in life. And there seems to be a theme.

Among these relationships there is an emotional vulnerability. There is trust. Words and feelings can be shared without fear. There is a desire for a deeper friendship. Some people just don't want that. But there is also an exchange of care. We give and take as we have need. When I take, it is usually encouragement or support. When I give it is spiritual, experiential, and intellectual guidance. I help people think and feel their way forward on The Path. What I value most in this life is my connections with people. I want these connections to be healthy, life-giving, and enlightening. I need these connections like I need water and air.

A little while ago, I was suddenly jarred as one my connections was severed. It was painful - like losing a limb. I found myself floundering, feeling empty, lost, and unwanted. After the initial shock and pain, I found myself reflecting on the rest of the connections that have brought me where I am today. I wrote in my journal that night, name after name after name. The number of people astonished me! It feels great knowing that the person I am today isn't me. I'm a combination of these beautiful people that have given part of themselves to me over a lifetime!

The thing I value is community: A group of people being one - with their flaws and sorrows and their hopes and dreams. This is the thing I live for.